During work on the film “Jaffa” (aka “Bride of the Sea” ), after 5 days of filming we detected that we was pregnant. The filming incited into a nightmare. we arrived at the set every day pang from revulsion and morning sickness. we was sleepy and exhausted, and in that condition we had to approach every day for 14 hours, withstand all the tragedy and the work, and conduct to say concentration. It was really hard. Instead of enjoying the filming as we did with “Or” in 2004, we suffered at every moment. Each and every morning we didn’t know how we would conduct to tarry the day that awaited me. With every take we would tighten another eye. we was so tired. The lassitude of pregnancy is not caused by a miss of sleep.
Unfortunately it also spoiled the film, and it didn’t spin out just as we wanted. The pregnancy also paid a high price: we gained 30 kilograms, we neglected my health. Instead of being rapt with being a profound woman, we was rapt with the film. Even afterward, during the editing, the problem continued. we was underneath extensive vigour to finish in time to contention the film to the Cannes Film Festival, and we remember that when we did the brew in Paris, we was already in my seventh month and could hardly travel from the hotel to the Metro. And worst of all, we was pang at the time from classical “pregnancy stupidity”: we had a tough time making decisions, meaningful what was good; we mislaid a lot of my certainty as a director.
Keren Yedaya at the 2009 Cannes Film Festival.
When this design was taken, we was at the end of my eighth month, at the Cannes festival together with the smashing actors. We were photographed right after the end of the premiere screening. You can see that I’m hugging and holding my profound belly. Maybe perplexing to strengthen my child from all this design represents.
Now my son is 2 years old, and I’m operative on a screenplay for my subsequent film. I’m in a rush to make another film quickly, before we get profound again. I’m in a panic: we don’t wish to have another child initial because then this plan will be behind by at least dual years. But I’m pang from anxiety. I’m already 38, what will occur if we continue to postpone the pregnancy until it’s too late?
I attempted to create a content for myself that says family is some-more important than making films, but my tragedy is I’m incompetent to mount behind that all the way. Being a good mom and remaining in such a perfectionist contention is an unconstrained struggle. That’s what the design symbolizes for me. we feel that we have to strengthen my child from this picture, from this mom who is unresolved around in Cannes, who spends hours on the set, who has something else in her life that may be too important to her. From the mom who chose to continue to be a film director.
